The first one was my first heartbreak

he was the man that was never supposed to leave me.

Him leaving

taught me many things.

When he left

he taught me how to build up walls

so that i could never be hurt like that again.

He taught me that promises can be broken.

He taught me that I couldn’t count on anyone but myself.

…

And then you came.

You were the best dad.

You were my best friend.

You came into my life when i needed you the most.

You loved me as if i were your own.

In many ways

you were worse than the first one.

You broke down every wall i built.

You made me trust you.

You made me love you.

You promised you would never leave me.

…

And then you did.

You broke your promise.

And you broke me.

I made myself a promise many years ago.

I promised myself i would never fight for a man to stay in my life when they clearly wanted to leave.

You leaving

hurt a million times worse than the first one

and now

just like him

you don’t get to come back.