I have had a week. I can feel myself falling into that same place I was last year. It is starting to worry me. And I know it is worrying the people that care about me too. I also know that none of them will confront me about it because I am very hot headed right now. I feel like I have lost everything. I lost softball, which is the most important thing in my life. It was my only stress reliever. I have to transfer schools now too. Which means i am losing all of my friends. I have never been closer with a group of people. I love each and every one of them so much, more than I love myself even. leaving them is going to really suck. I know that I need to do this though, it is what is best for me. I have never done anything for me. I don’t even know if I am making the right choice here. I just want to feel happy again. This move could really help me. But, this move could also destroy me.